Happy New Year! I can’t believe it’s 2024, but I say that about every new year.
I figured no better time to do a journal update than now, while there’s lots of reflecting going on in my life.
I’ve been spending a lot of time with my nose in my journal lately, getting my thoughts out as well as doing little exercises for reflection. Reflection feels like a big theme of this transitionary period. I wonder if other people are feeling that too?
I normally struggle to follow through on setting goals, intentions, or manifestations at a specific time in the year, I usually prefer to do them whenever it feels necessary or natural. But this time I was able to focus and really look at my life in great detail, the same time as many others also were.
It's not too late to do some reflecting yourself if you haven’t, so I want to share with you guys some of the things I did, to maybe give you some ideas. Also, some of my reflections. Maybe they can inspire you somehow.
The first thing I did was follow these journal prompts: https://ambitiouslyalexa.com/winter-solstice-journal-prompts/ They are for the winter solstice, but I think they also provide great perspective for ringing in the new year.
For me, the theme of 2023 was healing. My intention was to survive, and I sure did that! The whole year was very unexpected from therapy, to the people I dated, to working kink events. I learned I’m a people pleaser and I need to set better boundaries. I’m capable of so much adversity and so proud of myself for making it through the year. It wasn’t easy.
Stepping into the new year, I am the person that sets healthy boundaries, says no, and stands up for herself. This new version of me is confident, kind to myself and romanticizes life every chance I get. I’m letting go of people pleasing, perfectionism and justifying others actions. I will prioritize protecting my time and energy more. This year will be a learning experience, just like every year, but it will be a positive one.
Next, I wrote a manifestation list; things that I’m manifesting in the new year. Those things are: making the EDC performer auditions, perform once a month, have a sugar daddy, live luxuriously, adopt a second cat, have a healthy living situation and learn to better cope with my mental health. I encourage you to write your list of things you want to see happen this year!
I also made a list of goals; things that I want to work on doing, weekly, to have a better quality of life. Those things are: yoga, meditate and journal every day, go on a run 3 times per week, finish reading my book by the end of the month, walk 3-6 dogs per week and stick to my budget. They say you’re more likely to hit your goals if you write them down…just saying ;)
Lastly, I wrote down some of my favorite memories of 2023, and I want to share some with you. Shambhala, Bass Canyon, Lucidity, Cisco visiting me, visiting Seattle, emo nite, spending time with Syd, kink events, shibari, working at cafes with Riley, park days with Jamie, photoshoots, playing with muffin, Game Cube with Caleb and summer days with Saila. Some more specific ones are: jumping off the dock with Saila, getting stamped with the word ‘cunt’ at Bass Canyon, hooping at The Gorge, photoshoot in the woods with Saila, spending early mornings barefoot in Montana, getting hand tats, a tongue piercing and tooth gem, seeing all the mushrooms in Glacier Park, my first self-suspension, that one extra magical sunset with Jamie and shooting a hooping video with Caleb. So many good memories this year, so grateful.
As far as life outside of the exciting new year, I’ve been struggling with depression, so my psychiatrist upped my anti-depressant, so I’ll report back in 4-6 weeks if it’s working. Cross your fingers for me, I’d like to feel okay again.
Not too much else is new. I hope you enjoyed this New Year’s edition of a live journal update! Please let me know if you use any of these prompts for reflection, I’d love to hear about it!
Sending you all my love into 2024, this is our year ❤️ We got this!