Life is going on, as abnormally as ever. Nothing is predictable. Everything is changing, and so am I.
I’ve been on a true soul journey recently, and my direction in life is dramatically changing.
My purpose has been a focal point. I’ve been reading this book, ‘light is the new black’, and it prompted me to think about my purpose. It was at this point that I realized I’ve been floating through life with no direction, for at least the past 3 years. Basically, since I moved to LA. It’s like I completely forgot who I was.
I went to the farmers market one Sunday, and I really didn’t want to talk to anyone. I was dressed in all black, sunglasses on, headphones in. Yet someone managed to pull my attention. This guy was handing out fliers and asked to talk to me. Turns out he was holding a breathwork workshop, on….finding your purpose. If that wasn’t synchronistic enough, the music he was playing for the workshop was Clozee, Griz and LSDream. If you don’t know who those people are, they are some of my favorite EDM artists. I had to go.
It was pretty expensive, and I really didn’t have the money to go, but he gave me a discount code, and it knocked just enough money off that I could make it happen. Everything was aligning.
At the workshop, it became crystal clear to me that I’ve been living out of alignment. I realized that not only was I unhappy with my jobs, but they weren’t helping anyone. I wasn’t adding value to the world. I wasn’t creating positive change, like I’ve always felt so called to do. This is a feeling I’ve been having for maybe the past year, but I’ve been ignoring.
In Seattle, I was helping people through my household management business. I was creating more free time for others to enjoy their life, and this brought me a great sense of fulfillment.
Now, being a sex worker and social media manager, I just realized that neither of these career fields are helping heal the collective. I know that I’ve been called to help and heal people in this life. And that’s what feels good to my soul.
I also want to clarify, I don’t see anything wrong with being a sex worker or social media manager, and still support people in those industries, but it’s time for me to slowly begin transitioning out of it. I need to be a bright light that helps heal the collective, I know it’s my true calling.
What’s next for me? It’s time to finally leave LA. The time is right. I really wanted to go to Seattle next, I miss it so much. And I know that one day, Seattle will be home again. But right now, I need to catch up financially, especially if I’m going to be switching career fields. Money has just gotten tight, and for the time being, I can’t afford to pay rent. So I’ve decided to go back to Montana and live with my parents. I’ll be leaving some time in June and staying at least through October. I really don’t want to be there when it gets cold, but I have no idea where I’ll be at that point, financially, mentally, spiritually. Who knows where I’ll be going after that. Part of me really wants to travel with Riley, I miss living life with him so much. But the universe knows what’s in store. I’m not too worried. Everything manifests in divine timing.
While I’m in Montana, I plan to focus on switching careers. I want to be a full time lightworker. I want to do more energy work for the collective, through reiki, card readings and whatever else calls my name. I know in my soul this is what I’m called to do. I feel it in my bones. And I’m so excited about it!
I already have some leads one people who teach reiki in Montana, and I’m sure other trainings will fall into my lap. Life is so synchronistic, and everything happens in the perfect timing. I have no doubt about it.
I will be sad to be leaving the kink community in LA, as well as a few dear friends, but I know it’s time. Everything happens for a very specific reason, and those who are meant to stay in my life, will stay connected. I trust.
I’m actually very excited to spend the summer in Montana again. Last summer was so grounding, being barefoot in nature every day, breathing fresh mountain air. There’s also something grounding about being in the place where I was born and raised.
I also hope to continue working on my relationships with my parents. They are important to me, and I want to nurture what we have. This will also probably be my last summer with my dog I got my junior year of high school. She’s getting old- shes’s an 11-year-old chocolate lab- and she isn’t doing well. I want to make sure she gets all the love. She’s the best dog.
To recap, life is looking up. I’m grateful and really looking forward to seeing my life unfold before me in the next coming months. This solar eclipse was the doorway to a new path, and this is the beginning. The energy is potent, and I believe in divine timing.
Sending you all my love and light! Thank you for reading and taking the time to be a part of my journey.
If you’d like a card reading, please reach out! I will be doing $10 card readings until I start getting more training under my belt.
All is well. AHO!