Well, my first day of my journal and I'm feeling a lot of pressure.
I've been feeling a lot of pressure in general, and of course it all comes from myself. I have so many things I really want to do, but I've been so tired and low energy. I can only get a fraction of what I can normally get done in a day done.
Things I want to do: post one new youtube video a week, write one new blog post a week, make 3-5 live journal entries a week, go to the beach every day, play with my cat more, download bumble and meet friends or maybe a girlfriend, download the new social media app BeReal, get my house fumigated, draw, journal, find my deepest flaws and work on them, read the book 'Polysecure', play pokemon, do yoga and stretch, get my muscle strength back, go on a bike ride everyday, overcome my fear of the ocean, learn to surf, become a full fledge foodie and try a new restaurant every, stop letting my jealousy overcome me, stay more focused, go to bed earlier, get up earlier, relax more, be more present, enjoy each moment. I want to do a lot.
I work 2-3 hours a day max and live in Costa Rica. WHAT IS MY EXCUSE??? Why am I so tired all the time? Why does my body insist on 9-10 hours of sleep. All mysterious questions that I need to add to my long list of things to research.
It's been a long day. I got up at 7:30 and cleaned the house, did yoga, meditated, made my cacao maca tea, smoothie and took my vitamins. Got my social media work done by 11am. Rode my bike to town (20 min ride) went to 5 different stores. Came home and walked to the beach (3 min walk) and laid out. Then got restless and hooped for awhile. Came home and showered and ate. Did some more social media work. Worked on my youtube video that I wanted to have posted YESTERDAY. Ugh. and now just typing out my stress.
I got on my computer to update my finances that I keep in an excel spreadsheet, which I did. I was about to close it down when I thought to myself, I HAVE TO START THESE JOURNALS.
There will be no perfect time, and honestly I don't expect many people to read them any way.
I really just want a place where there aren't any metrics. This journal will get exactly 0 views 0 likes and 0 comments and I love that. I'm so over the stress of social media. But I'm working on not letting the MEANINGLESS things affect me.
Okay IM DONE. That was my day. Thanks for being here. Really. I appreciate the time and energy you took out of your day for me. You rock. ILY xoxo