TW: period talk
Today did not go as expected, it went even better.
Yesterday, I struggled. I really wanted to have a rest day inside, where I just CHILL because I've been doing so much.
However, that didn't work out very well because it was SO HOT in my apartment all day, that I was showing the beginning signs of heat exhaustion. Hindsight, I should have spent the day at the beach. Now I know for next time. Instead, I laid in my bed/the floor all day, feeling like I was going to pass out, despite chugging water and taking 4 cold showers. It did not feel like a rest day lol
I've also been struggling to sleep because of the heat, so I think it's time for me to go get an additional fan. I have a ceiling fan, but it honestly doesn't do much. (But it's better than nothing, I'm NOT complaining). Putting it on my list for tomorrow, wish me luck getting it back from the store on my bike...
BUT TODAY!!
Today was a really great day.
I'm going to tell you why now. But only if you really want to know..?
Do you want to know?
Are you sure?
Okay I'm done teasing!
I woke up, did all my daily things (work, clean the house, supplements, shower, cacao etc.) and then went and got brunch with my neighbor Monique. We went to a vegan cafe and I got a lavender lemonade, jackfruit bowl and coconut chocolate chip cookie. IT WAS SO HECKIN GOOD.
Our plan was to go to the beach after, but as we were leaving, I got a funny feeling in my tummy. We planned to reconvene at home and go from there. I got home, and what timing my period started! A week late. Literally the latest it's ever been in my entire life. I usually plan to not do too much the first few days because my cramps are killer. I took some aleve and told Monique I'd get back to her in an hour to see how I was feeling.
About an hour later she stopped by with my other neighbor, Ingrid and her two dogs, and said they were heading out and offered for me to come with.
My brain quickly did an analysis of my options: 1) continue to lay on the floor in pain and be hot and sweaty and sad and miserable 2) go to the beach and maybe be all of those things, but on the beach.
I'm happy to say I chose the beach. The aleve did it's job and I was not miserable. They showed me a new beach spot with a walking trail and I'm SOOO excited to take beach walks now. I was nice and cool, dipping my feet in the water, and even hooped for a bit. I got to know them both a little bit more and ended up telling them, basically my whole life story LOL oops. Afterwards we went to a beach side restaurant and Ingrid got us smoothies (so sweet!) We talked more and watched the MOST BEAUTIFUL sunset ever. It was so nice to be around friends and talk with people.
I've accidentally isolated myself pretty heavily here, by letting my anxiety get the best of me and keeping to myself. It's not been the worst thing though, because I have been craving a lot of alone time to recharge, and I'm so grateful to have it here.
I came home to Muffin being SO HAPPY to see me (only for food of course LMAO). Had a good dinner and did some yummy breathwork, which always makes me feel good after a big meal.
Today really inspired me for several reasons.
I want to get out, and create more new experiences, with people and on my own. I want to spend more time outside, because it's cooler outside during the day than it is inside, and it's just so beautiful, I want to take advantage of it. I want to work on overcoming my anxiety and meeting new people. And lastly, I want to work on saying yes more.
The amount of times in my life that I didn't feel like doing something, but did it anyway and ended up having a really good time...well there's been a lot of those times. I don't want to make excuses, I want to say yes to life, and trying new, scary things constantly. I believe it's the only way for me to grow, and when I'm growing, I'm happiest.
Life is good. I am blessed. I am safe. I am protected. I am loved. I am powerful.
My life is abundant and I'm so grateful <3
Thanks for catching up with me! I hope you're doing well. Sending you a forehead kiss :*
PURA VIDA <3