Life has been treating me really well lately, though I know it’s because I’ve been putting in a lot of effort to grow and be positive. If I’ve learned anything recently, it’s that happiness doesn’t happen on accident.
Since my last update, I’ve been extremely intentional about how I spend my time. I’ll admit I’ve probably spent more time on Instagram than I’d like, but I’ve been using it as inspiration. The rest of my time is split up between self-growth and REST! Rest has been something I’ve needed a lot of lately, and I’m not judging myself for it. I believe it’s what has given me the power to make such big changes in my life.
I started meditating and doing breathwork daily. I’m not perfect, I’ve missed some days, but in the last 25 days, I’ve meditated 19 times! Progress over perfection. I’m in the middle of a 40-day meditation course, and it’s been so lovely, bringing so much awareness to my thoughts, breath and body. I’m just going to plug Insight Timer here really quick: if you don’t meditate or want to get back into it, check this app out. Also! Check out this article on all my favorite apps here.
Back to it: I’ve also hooped every single day since I decided to take charge of my life. It’s not even something I have to force myself to do anymore. I’m obsessed with waking up and dancing with my little circle in the fresh dewy grass with the sun shining down on me. The sun on my face…ahhh it gives me so many happy brain chemicals! I have immense gratitude to dance.
One thing I’ve still been struggling to get consistent with is yoga. I still practice about 3 times a week, but I feel like I should practice more. Something I’m still debating with myself about. Do I need to do yoga every day? If I was taking in person classes, would I really go to the studio every day? Maybe 3 times a week is enough. Still feeling that one out. But doing yoga nonetheless! Better than my previous efforts of 0 times per week lol
My mental health has also been improving, and I have so many things to thank for it. I’ve surrounded myself with like-minded people who lift me up, push me to grow and create a loving safe environment in which I can be vulnerable and share my soul.
Shout out to Saila, you’ve been the biggest inspiration to me and helped me reconnect with my spiritual side which I so dearly missed. I’ll cherish all the time we’ve spent together reading cards, creating alters, spinning fire, frolicking around naked in nature and just being authentic, fully. I don’t think I’d be in this new mindset if it wasn’t for all the time I’ve spent with you. Ahhh love you so much.
Because I’ve been doing so well in life, I’ve been able to cut back my therapy from weekly, to bi-weekly, which feels like the biggest accomplishment. If you haven’t read my last few updates, I spent the beginning of the year in a PHP (partial hospitalization program) where I was doing therapy in person, 7 hours a day, 5 days a week. It was exhausting and some of the hardest work I’ve ever done, but I learned and grew and healed sooo much. So going from that to biweekly therapy, in just 9 months, is a huge fucking accomplishment and I’m so incredibly proud of myself. Big win for sure.
I also want to take a minute to shout out Jelani, who I went to high school with briefly. We just reconnected and had the best conversation. It reminded me why I live the way I do. I love connecting with others and helping people on their journeys. I love being an open mind, an open book, and sharing my knowledge with others. He inspired me to keep writing in this blog. It felt really nice to know that my words can help people. That’s my life goal, to positively impact others lives. What better way to live?
I also want to acknowledge everyone who reads my blog, shares it, and leaves comments on my social media posts about it. These comments are like precious gold to me, it reminds me of why I write. Again, spreading awareness about topics I’m passionate about, and making the world a more positive place. Even if that’s through relating to others when I’m going through a hard time. I love this space that you all have allowed me to cultivate.
In other fun news, I had an amazing time at Bass Canyon. I feel like I finally found a balance of taking photos and videos, and being present. So many sweet memories with great friends. Live music will always be my special form of therapy. My next show I’m going to is actually Owl City. It’s not something that many people know, but I’m a die-hard fan and am obsessed with his music. My mom may drive back to LA with me and go with, which would be so special to me because she saw Owl City with me in 2019.
Bringing me to my last point, wrapping up this long ass update. My time in Montana is coming to an end and I’m really sad to be honest. I didn’t think I would be as happy here as I am, but I’ve really been thriving. Nature therapy is real. I’m either leaving September 24th or October 1st, depends on getting my meds refilled. But regardless, less than a month left. I’ve made the best of my time here though, and I’ll be leaving with no regrets. It’s been a beautiful experience and I’m so happy I’ve gotten to help my mom out a bit. Grateful.
If you made it this far, thank you for reading as always. My heart is so full and it means so much to me that so many people read my blog. Actually, if just one person read my blog, that would be worth it. I hope you got something out of this to take home for yourself. The world is full of love, don’t forget it.
Sending all of my love ❤️
Me-owt 🐱