So I'm sitting in what has become my favorite local cafe (to work at, their Wi-Fi is STELLAR for Montana) and I have exactly one week left until I head back to LA!!! 2.5 months felt like a blink of an eye.
As I type that, I have a pit in my stomach. I've grown so fond of my vacation life style I've been living in MT. I wake up each day and work with a beautiful view, dance around in our fresh grass, read in my hammock, take an afternoon nap, and eat a fresh home cooked meals, often with venison. What a life to live. I'm so overwhelmed with gratitude from the time I've gotten to spend here. So grateful that I wish I didn't have to go back.
I don't miss the LA traffic, the lack of nature around me, and the general anxiety that I have just existing in such a big city. Going back is going to be kind of tough. Ahhh. Anxious.
I have some good goals going back to keep me focused though. I want to start working out again- either running, finding a workout routine at home OR possibly checking out the boxing gym across the street from my house, could be fun. I have a lot of pent up anger deep in the recesses of my being that might like to learn some self defense.
I also want to get back to my normal diet. I have been eating gluten and dairy free since I was in Costa Rica, but since being home with my mom, I threw that diet out the window because-free food, duh! Not going to be picky about that, I did that enough as a child LOL
Another thing I want to work on is getting out more. I've been doing really well mentally so I've been able to cut back on therapy a lot, which is saving me over $500 a month!! With that extra money I want to start going out to shows again, hanging out with friends, and just living it up in LA. My goal is to move back to Seattle next year, so I'd like to soak up all that I can before I go. I will definitely miss the weather when I move.
The last thing I want to bring back to LA with me is my spirituality that I've rediscovered here. I intend to continue meditating every day, doing card readings, and learning more about all the magic in the world around me. It's a part of me that I haven't felt connected to in a very long time, and Montana and friends have helped me rekindle that part of me. So grateful.
I'm going to have to be very intentional about getting outside. It's been so easy to just walk outside and take a hoop break, literally whenever I want. Sure I can still do that in LA inside my house, but if I want to hoop outside (and yes it's a MUCH different vibe), I have to drive to a park, which yes, is only 5 minutes away, but is still a barrier none the less. Man I'm so lucky for all this time I've gotten here.
And of course, I will miss my mom. I'm surprised to say that I didn't get sick of her! I'm actually very proud of myself for this, because I made it a very intentional goal to have patience with her and not get grumpy. In 2.5 months I only got grumpy with her once, which is huge. We fought a lot growing up, so I've been trying to have a better relationship with her. She is actually coming to LA a week after I get home, to go see Owl City with me. This is so special to me because Owl City is one of my favorite artists and we saw him together in 2019, when he came out with his last album. I'm so excited to see him again!
Okay enough rambling. Recap: I'm going to miss Montana ALOT, but also looking forward to integrating these new habits in LA. Life is good, and I'm extremely blessed. Eternally grateful to exist in the capacity that I do.
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Sending all my love, I hope that life is treating you well, you deserve happiness ❤️