The chaos has mostly subsided, besides the invasion of 200+ ants in my kitchen. But it's fine. I'm getting use to the chaos and bugs, finally.
I shouldn't speak so boldly though because if there was a giant cockroach on my wall right now, I would still have some apparent anxiety.
BUT PROGRESS HEYY? Speaking of progress, go check out my newest article. Growth is dope you guys. Read it here.
I've been finally feeling inspired, motivated and more like myself.
Today is day 7 of microdosing magic mushrooms and I really think it has helped soo much.
I feel a lot clearer, more focused and I have a lot more natural energy.
I'm so proud of all the growth September has brought. It hasn't been the easiest, but I've handled things with a lot more grace and understanding for myself.
I haven't smoked weed or drank all month. I've finally committed to changing my diet and cutting out gluten, dairy and processed sugars (day 5 and I feel SO GOOD). I'm on track to finish a book by the end of the month (for the first time in maybe a year). I've done yoga, meditated and practiced spanish every day. I've spent less time scrolling social media, and more time on my blog, journaling and my youtube channel.
The best part of all of this progress is not that I just did these things, but I woke up each day and wanted to do these things.
My mantra this month has been, "how do you want to feel?"
I've been making all my decisions based off this centering question, and I've never felt better. Truly I feel amazing.
I'm so grateful for my friends, neighbors, family, therapist, partners and cat for supporting me, especially this month. I just want to write out everyone's name, in no specific order, just to send some love to those that have shown me so much love.
My mom, Riley, Isaac, Monique, Ingrid, Ignacio, Xiomarra Elaine, Ben, Naomi, Lily, Saila, Vane, Dylan, Nate, Arlene, Summer, Lindsey, Carla, Tiera, Jniyah, Hay, Tessa, Cisco, Kate, Sarah, Paula, Maisie, Nicole, Jamie, Megan, Leigh, Troy, Patches and Alex.
I really hope I didn't miss anyone, but I just want to acknowledge how much support I have and show my gratitude. Life is crazy y'all.
I'm going on vacation next week to Bocas in Panama with my friend Monique, and I'm so excited for a mini adventure.
This weekend will be about resting up, getting some work done and enjoying the calm before the storm.
After I get back from Bocas, it will be less than a week before Riley gets here, I'm so excited :'))
Okay thanks for reading! So much love to you <3
PURA VIDA!