I just got back from Bocas, Panama yesterday. It was so much fun, I went with my friend Monique. It's beautiful tropical islands, if you didn't know.
We ate so much yummy, healthy food. Drank at least two smoothies a day. And we even went kayaking and swimming in the beautiful teal blue water. I also got to experience yet another new culture and my first time taking a water taxi. It was amazing. I'm in love with traveling and new experiences.
I even accidentally brought a LIVE CRAB back with me somehow??? Idk but I woke up this morning and opened my door, he was just chilling on my screen door. Scared the absolute shit out of me because I thought it was a cockroach LOL I live 4 blocks away from the beach, there's no way he walked all the way to my front door. But our air bnb had crabs EVERYWHERE. In the hallway, bathroom and yard. They're cute. I hope my friend finds his way back to the beach haha.
However it had it's hard times. For a week and a half before I took the trip, I cut out dairy and gluten, and had been strict about it. I was still pretty strict about it, but I did have a few slip ups on the trip and it WRECKED my gut.
I've had a really painful stomach ache for the past two days. Just confirmation that my body is like, NOPE, to gluten and dairy.
I also think I have fleas??? I'm not totally sure tbh, but I have 40+ small bumps that keep popping up, only while I'm inside my house. They're much smaller than mosquito bites, but also still itchy. I'm going to wash all of my sheets and rugs tomorrow and hope that it helps.
It's just kind of been one of those strings of days where the lack of luxuries here is really getting to me.
Some exciting news though! I found out the grocery store delivers FOR FREE??? Ya'll my life is changed. No more trying to carry my eggs back on my bike without breaking them. No more taking two trips to the grocery store because I can't fit my weekly shopping trip in my backpack and bike basket. No more squashed fruit. ANDDD no more impulse buying. Game changer. So grateful!
Also today ends sober September and I feel SO good and SO inspired. I don't drink, so weed was the main thing I was taking a break from. At first, I was smoking lavender pre rolls every night to deal with my cravings, but now I only smoke them every few days. I'm so proud of myself.
Not only am I not compulsively smoking weed every night, I've also made SOOO much progress with my compulsive eating of sugar. I was eating so many sugary, unhealthy things when I would smoke weed, and it would carry throughout my day, and I'd always be craving the next sweet thing. Eating a lot of bread and pastries.
Now, I still snack on sweets throughout the day, but my sweets consist of smoothies, fried plantain, chia seed pudding and homemade cacao chocolate. I also found some gluten free vegan cookies at the store that are very minimally processed. I even started making my own sorbet! It feels so much better to make your own sweet treats, because you can control the sugar level and type, as well as know everything that's in it!
A big mindset shift for me has been dropping the deprivation mindset. If I wake up and I want to eat chocolate, I do it. Giving into cravings when I have them, but not over indulging, knowing I can have more whenever I want, has helped so much. It seems counter intuitive, but it's worked so well for me.
So coming out of September, I think I'll stay sober awhile longer. I'm eating healthier, sleeping better, more productive and all around feeling healthier. I'm going to continue eating GF and DF as well as keeping the sugar amount down. I also did yoga, meditated and practiced spanish nearly every day. My one goal I fell short on was I did not finish reading my book, but progress over perfection. I'll take it.
Riley will be here in 5 days, and I'm soooo excited to see him, stare into his eyes and talk for hours. I'm also looking forward to eating yummy, healthy food with him, as he's eating paleo now. IM SO IN LOVE UGH!!!
Although these next few days are going to be crazy busy with editing, prepping for Riley and cleaning, I'm so excited. Life throws stressors at me often, especially here in Costa Rica, but I'm feeling it all. Moving through it all. Learning and growing. At the end of the day, my heart is filled with gratitude, for the fact that I'm able to experience such extremes.
Thank you for reading and supporting me. I'm so grateful to have an outlet with no censorship, likes, views or comments. I can be vulnerable and authentic, with no holding back.
IM SO DAMN GRATEFUL!!!!
Okay goodnight, sleep tight, send good vibes, so that the fleas don't bite LOL
Pura Vida <3