Where do I even start..
I'm stressed, overwhlemed, depressed and anxious, what a como..AND on top of that, life is about to get crazy. I'm doing a 17 day road trip, to and from Seattle.
I'm very excited, but very stressed getting ready for it. I'm also nervous becase it's the longest time I will had been without Muffin since I got her..And the longest she'll go without seein me or Riley.
Our roommate is going take care of her, but I'm just nervous because he doesn't seem like a cat person. But I know she'll be ok. I'm officially a crazy cat mother though, because I got a camera so I can talk to her while I'm gone 😅
It's going to be an amazing trip though because I get to see best friends, family, partners and old friends from high school. I think it will be a very special trip.
It will also be a good experience for me to practice my boundaries in. Saying no, when don't want to hang out with people, rather than making time for people that I don't feel nourished by. And not worrying if people take it personally, because my boundaries are not something I need to apologieze for.
The 18th I also have the privilege of performing at a night club! It's been since before covid that I've performed on stage for a crowd, and I couldn't be more excited. Performing lights a fire in my soul like nothing else. AND I get to do it with my bestie Lily 🥹
I have a new YouTube video filmed that I'm going to edit and post today! And I'm going to try really hard to vlog as much of my Seattle trip as I can. My social anxiety makes it hard to record in front of other people, but I'm going to try my best!
I also have a new poem I wrote, that I'm going to add on here today! It's a heavy one, but I like expressing hard things through poetry. I'll link it here when it's up.
I'm finally tired after pushing myself to be hyper productive all day, while fighting off the depression. It's 1:46am and I feel like I can finally fall asleep.
Thank you for checking in on me, it means a lot ❤️
I love you and am sending hugs. Send me some good vibes, I need it!