Last night was a bit rough.
I had a large cockroach in my kitchen, about the size of my palm.
The good news is there was progress.
When I saw it chillin' on the kitchen wall, in the dim light, before I turned the light on, I didn't freak out or have heightened anxiety. Instead, I just let out a big sigh because I knew it would be a whole ordeal. And it was.
I first, let me say, DID TRY to catch it, so I could let it outside. I have a pretty good system down with a cup and folder. But it moves SO FAST I completely missed it.
I proceeded to text all my neighbors to see if anyone could assist. No one replied. I text both of my partners to see if I could at least have an emotional support call. No one replied. So I called my dear, darling mother. Thank god she answered.
I REALLY DIDN'T want to kill it, but I knew because of how quick this guy was, I wouldn't be able to capture him. My mom helped me decide to try to kill him. But I couldn't smash him, I was too grossed out by that outcome. So I decided to use lemon kitchen cleaner LOL
This was not effective, as he immediately RAN INTO MY DRY FOOD STORAGE AREA. I cried. I decided to slowly move each box of food away to find him and try to spray him again. I moved a box that he was UNDER and he ran out, almost across my hand, and I screamed bloody murder.
He finally ran into my window area as I continued to spray at him. He found a tiny crack and escaped outside. The whole time my mother is just listening to me scream, cry and try not to have a panic attack.
But I'm just glad he made it outside. I'm really hoping I didn't spray him with too much cleaner and he didn't die.
However, this was a good reminder to spray all my windows with vinegar. Both bugs and mold hate vinegar, so that was a positive preventative, I would have forgotten to do otherwise.
SOOO I had a hard time relaxing before sleep last night.
Other than that crazy event, I've been feeling kind of tired and meh the past few days. I spent two days deep cleaning EVERYTHING in my house since I found a piece of mold. Also did a lot of grocery shopping, as well as work, taking care of my body through yoga, meditation, hooping and beach days.
It's just been really busy.
Maybe I'll try to rest soon. I just feel really guilty if I don't go outside for a good chunk of each day. But I also really just want to have a day where I stay inside, read, journal, watch a movie and play games. I want a chill day without the guilt.
Something I will forever be working on.
RELAXING. What a concept.
I updated my blog quite a bit today. Added a new general article, two poems and this live journal. Feeling good about that.
I've also been sitting outside (covered in bug spray with my citronella incense LOL) working on my computer, so that I can be connected to my neighbors wifi, so that my photos can upload to the iCloud, so that HOPEFULLY I can film and post a YouTube video by next tuesday. That's the hope!
For the rest of my day, I need to go into town to get cash so I can pay my neighbor for the joint he sold me LOL
I also would really like to hoop or shuffle, feeling the vibe.
But it's also 3pm and I've only eaten a bowl of cereal, so I should probably eat soon haha...
And then hopefully tonight I can relax a little bit. I'm hoping it rains tonight because I LOVE putting on some Blackmill (my fav chill music), smoking a joint, having a good deep stretch and then playing some video games. The rain just adds the best ambiance.
I also got some new plants yesterday! I live right down the road from a nursery, and now that I've gone once....Someone take my wallet. I got plants that are good for keeping mosquitos away, and put them in front of my house. But my patio is TOO CUTE now, and I really want to cover it in plants...Guys its sooo cute!
Also if you haven't checked out my newest YouTube videos, I most recently uploaded my home tour and shaving my hair off! Check them out <3
Thanks for reading! Wishing you the best day! Remember to go with the flow, be gentle with yourself and do something nice for yourself today!
Love you alllllll <3 PURA VIDA!