This will probably be my last live journal update for a week or two. Maybe, we'll see. I'm just not putting an pressure on myself, because life just changed drastically.
The last bug infestation, and the lack of support/care from my landlord, sent me over the edge.
I still don't know what kind of bugs they were, past tiny biting beetles. I went through bed bug and flea scares, before realizing it's not that.
My landlord is out of town, so she had her neighbor come over and look at them. She only speaks spanish, so all I got from the conversation is that they feed on wood, but also bite, and their bites are very itchy. But she also said not to worry about them..
I wanted to be like EXCUSE ME??? I have 50+ bites all over me, and more each day. It's not a big deal? I can't handle the dismissive mindset they have here. I understand it's 'life' here for them, but I don't think getting bitten by bugs constantly in my own home, is really a normal every day, you just deal with it thing.
The good news is a) I fumigated my house all by myself, no thanks to my landlord. So unhelpful. But I think they're mostly dead. Riley gets here today and I didn't want him getting bit like i have. 2) since they live/feed on wood, they're unlikely to want to hitch a ride home with me, which I'm SOOO glad about. That was my main concern, had it been bed bugs or fleas.
But after all the chaos. I lost it. I called it. I thought to myself, I want to go home SO badly. And one phone call with Riley, and one with my mom later, I decided I'm coming home.
The recent infestation was just the cherry on top.
We're severely low on water, to the point that I couldn't flush my toilet for three days and had to shower in the rain. We only get water delivered to our tank 3 days a week, so every other day carries the possibility of not having water, for the foreseeable future. Every little tiny hard thing has piled up and I couldn't do it anymore. The heat, water shortages, power outages, bugs and mold finally got to be too much.
So I'm going home. Riley gets here in just a few hours, we're spending the week here, and we fly back home together with Muffin next Wednesday. I can't freaking wait.
I'm a little nervous to go back, because I'm going to have so much to do. Riley and I will be sharing a room now since he got a roommate, so I'm going to have to unpack all of my stored stuff and reorganize to make all of our stuff fit. My work load for social media is also increasing when I get back, on top of other life things. I'm nervous to be back in the city and deal with social anxiety.
I want so badly to hold onto all the good habits I've cultivated here. Yoga, breath work, healthy food, lots of water and a sober lifestyle. I want to prioritize taking care of myself first. It's been really nice to have that space here.
SOO with all that being said, I might not be very active on here, my youtube channel or socials for a bit, as I make another big life change.
I swear that I just like to cause myself complete chaos all the time. I want to work on work, life, relax balance. I think that, on top of just re integrating my new self back home, is my goal. I only want to be in LA for 6 months, before I have another big change up my sleeve...
However, I'm always open to whatever comes my way. I miss my friends tho, I need to change that.
OKAYYYY DOKEYYYY!! Wish my luck in my travels. I can't wait to not be sweating.
Sending you all my love <3
OH if you want to see my full update of what I learned in Costa Rica, check it out HERE!
Pura Vida :)))